Merry Meet! Hello Rose….. Due to being disabled and a lack of income, I am living with my 77 year old mother. I am a 48 year old educated, beautiful,creative and intelligent woman. I have not been able to find a job for more than 7 months now. This is not the first time I have had to live with her due to my inability to earn an adequate living. We have a very difficult relationship for many reasons, but especially because she knowingly left me with child abusers consistently from the time I was an infant until I was about 7 years old. When I say I am disabled, I mean that I have a spine injury from a severe car accident that occured 7 years ago which causes almost constant pain and limits my mobility. I also have major anger issues around what happened to me during my childhood – I have PTSD and I don’t qualify for health insurance that I can afford right now in order to get any help. I bought your mini-course a few months ago and have been casting spells and studying Wicca for a few years now. My spells of late have not been able to help me in any tangible way (money, employment, housing,connections, etc). I am in a desperate situation and would rather take my own life than continue to live with a person that(although she is my “Mother”)is toxic to my soul. I feel intense hatred toward her right now. I need to manifest a way out of this terrible experience immediately…. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated! Bright Blessings, Holly Hooper [email protected]

Merry meet Holly Hooper,
It was wonderful to hear from you. I am so sorry to hear about your childhood and how many people were responsible for hurting you. I hope you can forgive them as it hurts you more to just remember it and it becomes a cycle with hurts you further.
I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive your mother. Sometimes mothers are also little children who had to go through horrors. Sometimes these things happen to make us stronger. However, keeping hatred in our hearts only hurts us and others!
One of the ways by which life flourishes is when we are thankful for every day, every hour, every minute of our life. Instead of focusing on our lack, why not spend time thinking of what you have. Although it may be very difficult to forgive your mother, it is only then that your heart will get cleansed.
Also, remove all negative emotions from your day and replace them with positive ones for the future of your life. Think of all the people in the world who are struggling with problems such as homelessness, drug addiction, abandonment, lack of sight, lack of hearing, disabilities etc.
Any day, if you go out to the street, you will be able to see a lot of people passing around you. How many of them have wonderful lives? How many of them have jobs? No one knows. However, we can guess that most people have a lot of things to celebrate and many to forget.
Which one would you choose? Choose happiness regardless of the past which is like water that has passed under the bridge. It will never return again, but we will certainly get more and more challenges.
One thing you can do to make your life worth is to do something for others. Join a food bank or a pet shelter and maybe work with diabled children or abused children. You will not only feel useful, you may also be able to work out your tragic expereinces and change them into positive ones.
Brightest Blessings.
Rose